greenish surprise

2010-10-06T22:14:00.001+08:00

im sorry to say this, but i am very ashamed of you.

you disapprove of everything i love, what am i supposed to feel/think/do?

2010-08-16T18:15:00.004+08:00

do you know what its like to live life like you're taking a walk through a minefield. all those grenades just waiting to explode. straining your ears to hear any audible tension or change in tone. and even when you detect it, your efforts will still be futile, like trying to contain water in your hands.

im sorry i cant make you proud. but i hate how you will use everything i care about against me. its weird how i dont recall you being like this. but then again, i have a knack for forgetting unpleasant incidents.

but i can never forget:

1) how you blamed me for making noise when you were taking a nap, when it was obviously my sister and i dont believe that you cant tell our voices apart.( i must have been around 6 and i think this was the incident that made me realise that you were just biased and there was nothing i could do)

2) how you proudly scanned in my sister's class photos into your computer, when you've never ever even looked at mine.

3) how i kicked the toilet door so hard, cos i was so mad with you for making everybody cry.

4) what happened that day when we were back at our old apartment and mummy and i were trying to clear out the stuff in the fridge. and all i remember was being so angry that i wasnt even scared, as i should have been.

5) how you constantly threaten to send the cats away and the countless arguments and fights it has caused.

p.s im actually just scared stiff that my sister's taking her alevels this year, and i want her to do well so bloody badly, because i know that if she doesn't it'll just be my fault again.

p.p.s im sorry that i feel jealous of other people's perfect families.

2010-08-10T14:22:00.001+08:00

5moredays!!!:)

2010-07-06T16:56:00.001+08:00

im so sorry. this is all my fault.

2010-06-24T16:32:00.002+08:00

i wish i could erase this past month, cos it has been nothing short of a disaster for me. that one phone call was my biggest mistake ever, but i never would have thought that the consequences would be so severe. its funny how you always assume that nobody gives a shit about you, when i've always been here for you and i'm sure that you know it too. there're so many things i wish i could say to you, because in spite of all this, i know that there must be a reason for your actions, or rather the lack of them. why cant you just tell me? ;(

2010-06-20T12:26:00.002+08:00

i really need to stop having conversations with myself in the shower. its just that there's nobody who wants to listen/talk to me about the things i want to talk about, the things that i feel are important to me, but of course, not as crucial or life-changing, as the problems of others.

2010-06-19T22:35:00.003+08:00

"Olive often imagined there was an orchestra in her heart. Music. Heard only by her, except when her heart broke open and it spilled out into the world." the Narrator, Pushing Daisies.

" As he stared at her, he reached around his back and held his own hand. Pretending he was holding hers, and at that very moment, she was pretending to be holding his." the Narrator, Pushing Daisies.

2010-05-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

2010-05-07T18:14:00.003+08:00

im feeling very thankful today:) my dear friends, i love all of you so much!!!

anyway, xh, this is for you! i think you've probably heard this before, hahah but i've just discovered it, so humor me and listen to it!

I memorized the Golden Rule

And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the story inside out
I can tell you all about
The path that led Him up to Calvary
But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say
But I'll never be the same
Because He changed my life when He became...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that I'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now every day I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want to live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that He is...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything
And looking back over my life at the end
I'll go to meet You saying You've been

You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history
You're the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
You're everything
Lord, You're everything to me

2010-04-16T22:54:00.001+08:00

I held him close for only a short time, but after he was gone, I'd see his smile on the face of a perfect stranger & I knew he would be there with me all the rest of my days.-the story people

i miss my gonggong:( and everytime i wave at the old man across the street, i think it hurts, just a little more.

2010-04-16T22:38:00.002+08:00

I remember when whales had wings, she said. Whatever happened? I said. It got too noisy with all the airplanes & other stuff, so they flew back into the ocean and never came back. Some days, she added, I think about going too.

just to let you know, you've finally lost me.

2010-01-07T23:38:00.002+08:00

hello 2010, so far, you havent been that fantastic. last years wishes of taking new risks, are now forgotten. i cant wait for today to end. i really should start lowering my expectations,its about time i realize that this isnt working. guilt-ridden and ignored. the greatest feelings in the world, ever. both mixed up in a strange concoction, residing in a host, that is me.

funny how i can lose the ability to speak sometimes, to the people i am chattiest with. and stare at the phone in dead silence. it has also come to my attention, how much i love the quiet. and how poorly you understand me.

2009-11-15T19:16:00.001+08:00

every time i let someone in, it always backfires on me.

2009-08-13T19:04:00.002+08:00

everything sucks like mad. im not good at doing this:( and it doesnt feel as if its going to get any better. as for the other issue, everytime i think the situation's improving, im proved wrong. oh well. hahah doubt these will kill me but they're still as torturous:/

had the weirdest dream that was kinda bout ally.hah! so much for abstinence.

2009-08-04T23:30:00.002+08:00

ive really just been going on about how much i dont want school to start. and i really mean it man. almost 2 years of not attending school. hahahha. SUCKS!

:( :( :( V V V SAD!!! can someone go with me to school and be my friend?:) HHAHAHAHA!

ps: totally not looking forward to the 1hr plus long busride with absolutely no entertainment whatsoever, considering the fact that my ipod's batt is flat and ive been delaying charging it for almost a month now. need a psp asap, but i forsee it'll be severely under-utilised. k whatever.

2009-06-02T23:18:00.002+08:00

what i really really wanna do, is to get on board a plane to china, hike up some random mountain, set up camp there and volunteer as some medical aid for kids or to just teach and entertain them. i want to stay for a year or so, but all the volunteer sites ive checked out only cover a maximum 12 weeks stay.
but i know my dad's not going to allow in a million years, so ive got to save money on my own and sneak off once im done with uni.
yes, got to write this down here, in case i lose track:D

2009-05-25T23:56:00.002+08:00

i dont care if this was what she's intended all along. dont give a shit anymore. i smell the scent of wood burning. good luck and good bye.

2009-05-22T00:16:00.003+08:00

my ulcer hurts like shit. damn pain.:( funny how i refuse to sleep even though its past twelve and im not working.hahaha, urgent need to do something drastic to my hair man. and my sister keeps on calling me stupid:( im so sad and i need to do something exciting NOW!
oh, anyway, i quite like lollipop now, nope not the confectionary, i like that too, esp pushpops, but im missing the point here, i mean the taiwanese boyband.HAHAHAHA!! SO CHEENA! okay wayyy, too many commas in the lollipop sentence. awei is really cute, but hes short:/ seriously man, whats with me and short people.bahh, fz please kindlyaccept my donation of 15cm to you. that would make me a nice 155cm. how ideal.

check out my expression, damn classic. oh and my earring flew out during the ride. scary eh.

2009-05-15T12:10:00.000+08:00

so you sailed away
into a gray sky morning
now im here to stay

2009-04-11T22:29:00.003+08:00

my eyes are really tired, i hope i wont have ninny eyes tmr. hahah, wanna sleep! k, 1.5 hours to go. maybe i shall nap on the sofa. need to make specs soon. at the rate im going, wake up, stuff in contacts, immediately before i sleep then take out, thats like 17hrs, like that die alrd la.shitzxzxzxz. dig out my eyeballs, fix my eyes and stuff them back.
god, please give me perfect eyesight, or the funds to go for lasik:)

2009-04-09T23:17:00.002+08:00

meowrrr, haha im abit sad that my babies dont really like the salmon mousse i got them :( oh well, thank god i only bought 2 packets. was tempted to buy more cos they usually really love salmon. maybe i'll give the other packet to the cat living a few houses away. my blog could do with a couple of pictures, but what to do, my life's not very interesting, and i dont like to take pictures.hhahah. serious.

weekly routine: mon&tues-pp with X, home by 4, online till 12, bathe, sleep
wed-pp with mummy, home by 4, online till 12, bathe, sleep
thurs-home alone, online from 4-12, bathe, sleep
fri- pp with mummy, online from 4-12, bathe, sleep
sat- bedok rise till 2.30, home, online from 4-12, bathe, sleep
sun- church, home, bathe, sleep

like cinderella like that, must rush home by 4, if not my carriage would turn into a pumpkin.see, told you my life is boring, AND VERY ROUTINE!!! i have a love-hate thing with routines. you know, this episode of csi, where the killer could murder this woman so easily cos her life was so routined,that she naps at a specific time daily, ive got a sort of phobia of that. hahaha. k, why would anyone wanna kill me:) omg, looking at the number of times i go pp a week is really scary.hahaha.

2009-04-07T00:22:00.002+08:00

so im still alive haha, no, i didnt hyperventilate on my way this morning:D and when i reached there i realised all the people were so normal, that i wasnt really terrified. heh, so the dinosaurs in my belly died:) and i was rather calm. really, it wasnt that bad being in the same group as two rafflesians.

2009-04-03T00:24:00.003+08:00

yup, so today, some guy called in and started giving me a pop quiz on the US, starting with the coldest state of America, i was like sort of panicking alrd, cos he was counting down and he only gave me 30secs, no time to google. and thennnn, i remembered that Sarah Palin is from Alaska. hahhah, now, Alaska sounds cold, doesnt it, like Antartica, so i typed Alaska, and the stupid guy said'dingdingding', which i infered it to mean that i got it right. so we moved on to the next question. hahha, who was Obama contesting against in the elections. k then, i felt really dumb in taking part in his little pop quiz, cos either he thinks that everyone outside the US doesnt know wth is going on in there, or he thinks we're all idiots. hahah, but he was quite impressed that i knew, hahah dont know why la. anyway, i hope he comes back again tmr:) US trivia time.

freaking out, and technically there's still 2 more days to go, since its 12.25 now. ahhhh!!!
somehow, i feel really insensitive being so scared, so i feel bad that i feel scared. confused and with butterflies in my stomach.
come monday, these butterflies will morph into stampeding dinosaurs.

so all i can do now is have faith:)

2009-03-29T00:02:00.001+08:00

i feel crampy): aiyo period, please be more regular k, or just dont come at you. lurblurbzxzxz

2009-03-20T20:19:00.005+08:00

Evey: Who are you?
V: Who? Who is but the form following the function of what and what i am is a man in a mask.
Evey: Oh i can see that
V: Of course you can. I'm not questioning your powers of observation, I'm merely remarking on the paradox of asking a masked man who he is.

V: But on this most auspicious of nights, permit me then, in lieu of the more commonplace sobriquet to suggest the character of this dramatis persona. Voila! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a bygone vexation stands vivified and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance, a vendetta, held as a votive not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose. So let me simply add that it is my very good honour to meet you, and you may call me V.

im so fond of v for vendetta now hahah. im quite slow, i know.but look at all the v words! hahah

2009-03-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

im so sleepy); okay ive got an hour and twenty mins left to go.

thankyou, God:)

2009-03-05T15:36:00.002+08:00

RULES:
Go to Google and type in your first name and the phrase. Copy and paste the first sentence/phrase you get that makes sense.

Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search.
A: Everyone needs a little Evelyn. (hahahah i agree:) )

Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search.
A:Evelyn looks like a man in some pictures. ( WTH! okay, i concede defeat over this whole looking like a man thing, gahhh)

Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search.
A: Evelyn says rawwwwwwwr.

Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search.
A: Evelyn wants to keep it

Q: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search.
A: What does Evelyn mean

Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search.
A: Evelyn hates Paul, who has had an affair with her sister Natalie. ( hahhaha so drama)

Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search.
A:Evelyn asks him why

Q: Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search.
A: Evelyn goes to disneyland (YAYYYY!:) )

Q: Type in "[your name] likes" in Google search.
A: Evelyn likes shoes (ya okay)

Q: Type in "[your name] eats" in Google search.
A: Evelyn eats rice crackers (YUM!)

Q: Type in "[your name] wears" in Google search.
A: Evelyn wears black and white stripes (escaped prisoner, heh)

Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search.
A: Eight year old Evelyn Towdy arrested for refusing to take off her cow shirt (omg so poor thing!)

2009-02-27T15:44:00.002+08:00

i've decided to make a list of all the things that i dont believe in:

1. love (hahha i know i sound like a jilted lover but im not kay, just cynical)
2. clubbing
3. fairies
4. unicorns
5. magic
6. Santa Claus
7. Easter Bunny
8. Tooth Fairy
9. Sandman

okay, this list thing is stupid man. from no.3 onwards just shows my lack of inspiration. bah. whatever, i shall continue this whenever i feel particularly bored.

dear friends, please dont be sad:( everything works together for good, and i'll be keeping y'all in my prayers:) dont give up kay!

p.s i may just have a future in being a motivational speaker, ya right.

2009-02-26T23:21:00.002+08:00

ahahha, working now and people who call up to talk rubbish really make my day by injecting some humour in it man. livenloaded's showing now and it really sucks man. i can hear it from my computer room and its so horrid its not even funny. i'd rather stare at a blank comp screen waiting for calls than to go out and watch. bahh. dont get me wrong kay, i really do support local talent. hahah, get my point? :)

2009-02-22T19:53:00.002+08:00

i wish you guys wont be at each others throats all the time.
makes me realise why i dont believe in love.

hahahaha, but im good, how bout choooooooooo?:)

2009-01-15T12:07:00.002+08:00

Imagine all the girls, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
and the boys, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
and the strings, ee, ee, ee, ee, ee, ee, ee, ee
and the drums, and the drums, and the drums

:)MEOWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRR

2008-11-05T11:59:00.003+08:00

the accuracy of my gut feeling scares the hell out of me. know how when scrolling through the friends list of random people and you just click on one on a hunch? i always get the right one, maybe its just too unexpected, but hey, i should seriously consider becoming a PI:)

and one for the babies:)

2008-09-28T23:51:00.004+08:00

hellooooooooo:) im so tired of working now, though its for barely 8hrs a week? oh man, so lazy.booo.
anyway, more updates on the catties. so mura gave birth, it was scary man, she practically screamed while having contractions, and sushi's fur literally stood up. and he and chi were giving each other these weird in-shock kind of looks. anyhow, she had three kittens on wednesday, but so far the tiniest one, mickey/miki has alrd died cos mura was stressed and stuff:( sad sad:( he was the cutest, stripey, just like chi.

ahha! photos, to provide some visual aid:)

some brotherly love:D

BABIES!! when they were first born

i cant get over the fact that he just looks like hes sleeping!

2008-08-25T17:31:00.003+08:00

this is the second day that sushi hasnt eaten, apart from the treats and a few pellets :(
and no, studying has not been going along as planned.

gotta miss last year man.

2008-08-01T12:35:00.002+08:00

presenting: the blind korean tourist!
HAHAAAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!! DAMN FUNNY! laughed till we practically rolled off the sofa. omg! why on earth does limxiao look so BLIND!!!

white michaeljackson hand! look how brightly its glowing! and the contrast.hahhaahaah!!!!

yes, blind woman, are you looking for your white cane?

p/s: i think shes going to kill me

2008-07-30T00:23:00.002+08:00

all i need are my catties:Dlovelove!

presenting to you:
chi! who tries to run into my living room all the time to play with the curtains.

mura and sushi, carbon copies of each other

2008-07-26T21:59:00.002+08:00

today, i saw ally and his gf. brilliant isnt it?
and there's something wrong with the dumb blogskin. how much better can my day get eh?

2008-06-30T23:32:00.002+08:00

OH MY MAMAAAA!!!
some people really suck. bah, but me no care! me wants cookie! havent had famous amos in the longest time ever! since like last yr i think. too bad la, constantly broke.

no work, no money, perpetually broke. broke, no food does not equal to getting skinnier cos i just pig out at home.

okay, in fact i can be declared bankrupt. i think i owe up to 100bucks to various people. whatever, i wont be surprised if no one wants to go out with me anymore. grrr.someone, come to my house and start moving away the furniture. i wonder how much my ipod will fetch.

p.s i really cant rmb sheesha's name anymore! rmb sheesha from j1? hahhaha im serious kay! i spent a good 5mins trying to figure it out but i cant! soon it'll be ally and rff's turn. YAY ME!:)
IM IN LOVE WITH MY BRAIN

2008-06-23T12:59:00.004+08:00

:) :) im so happy right now, i could shout out loud, i could twirl around in circles and only stop till i got so dizzy i'd fall down. :) :)

from ages ago.i look like an old grandmama with my specs perched on the tip of my nose.but since limxiao has been asking for this since idontknowwhen i shall give it to her.hah! viewers' discretion is advised, please cover right half of the photo when viewing.

2008-06-17T16:04:00.002+08:00

pushing daisies is my favourite show ever. i love these sort of fanatsy-ish shows hahha, esp with a narrator:) go watch!

Ned: What's great about knowing? When you lift up a rock, do you find whipped cream? No, you find bugs. I say "no" to knowing.

2008-06-11T17:29:00.004+08:00

WHY, HELLOOOO!

so im back from osaka and i miss it alrd. if you think singapore's clean and green and all, you havent been to japan. seriously.and we nearly missed our flight there cause my dad remembered the wrong departure time. so we briskwalked (nothing can make me run) like mad to the terminal, where our gate was so perfectly located right at the end of it. whatever, it took 15mins, walking on the travelator, mind you.so, terminal3 kinda sucks. waaayy tooo big and empty and useless. anyway, pictures!notice anything different:)
(had the weirdest dream of both ally and rff)

on the train to osaka station, where we walked in circles for an hour trying to figure out where the subway station was.

the miniscule room. ahh well. the toilet bowl has the butt washer thing, but not as brilliant as the one in the lobby which even has fake flushing noises to disguise shitting sounds. seriously, the japanese think of EVERYTHING.

and then was my sissy's birthday, so we went to osaka aquarium to let her meet more of her species.

tickling the crab:)

so we covered universal studios, 2days there, nara and its famous deer park, where the deer bit me:( and kyoto.and of course, the aquarium:)

feeding the deer, which are cute and greedy. scrambling for food like they havent eaten in a gazillion years.

some random street in kyoto.hahaha

2008-06-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

OOSAKAAA BABYYYY!!! :)
leaving tmr morning. goodbye!

2008-05-31T15:51:00.003+08:00

its raining
its pouring
the old man is snoring
he went to bed
and bumped his head
and couldnt get up in the morning.

stupid pesky mosquito:( the terrible feeling of knowing there's a mosquito lurking somewhere waiting to sting you once the lights are out sucks like mad. bah! my attempts to bait it out, switching on the lights and staring at my arms and legs etc, were unsuccessful.i should introduce some lizards into my room to start off the whole food chain.heh, so i awoke this morning with three fat mosquito bites, which itch like mad. what joy!

missmissMISSS SCHOOL LIKE MAD! okay STUPID PHOTO!wouldnt you like to know why its stupid?hahahahahaha

2008-05-24T19:32:00.001+08:00

how would you measure failure?

2008-05-24T12:18:00.001+08:00

WALAO EH!!! LOOK AT KUSUMI'S CAR MAN!! her name's on the license plate, how nice is that la! okay, im very sad now, BYE!:( :(

2008-05-22T13:30:00.005+08:00

and the american idol is............ DAVID COOK!!:D

more pictures from disneyland hahha and disney's california adventure park.

YUMMY!

KERMIT!:)

im in no mood to blog anymore. hahah.

2008-05-17T05:31:00.005+08:00

okay, so serious jetlag.slept at fourplus p.m after i reached home and just woke up at 4am. great. ughh, the total travelling time nearly killed me, but the best part was getting passes to get into the business class lounge at lax before our flight:) YAY! sooo, thank goodness we left on wednesday cos the temperature was starting to heat up and i got sunburnt walking around disneyland. boo. im heavily in debt now. shit.and reality hit hard at 4am while i was watching lousy tv and cooking instant noodles, that im going to have to retake. shit shit shit!nows like mid may and i'll be going to osaka in june somemore! HOW!!!:( :(

anyhow, i figured that people do treat two girls travelling alone better. so we got mistaken for air stewardesses, japanese and of course mainland chinese(worst!).hahhhaa, cos we met so many nice and weird people on our trip, and despite having gone to LA like 4 times previously with the family, i have no recollection of ever meeting such nice people.hahhahah! and so giraffe and i decided that we should go on yearly holidays with qq.oh, after inspecting my legs, i've counted a grand total of seven bruises.ahhh!

so the night before i left, we had limsu the mandrill's surprise brithday celebration.haha, sadly i can no longer walk home from her house. okay, actually i can but its too far.anyway, pictures! and a couple of failed jumpshots.

hahah! fz, xh and limsu look like they're having some mafia meeting. too bad spoilt by the winnie the pooh cups.

oh the trials limsu had to go through to get her present.hahh.

these are the best of my lot.

pictures from LA:)

transiting at hongkong

the hotel for the first night near LAX after which we went down to anaheim:)

this is taking ages, so the rest will be up some other time.hahhaBYE!

2008-05-03T12:30:00.001+08:00

hellooo, i'd be leaving in a few hours time. hahahah, it hink it hasnt quite sunk in yet, the fact that giraffe and i would be going to LA, with all the super last minute preparations and what not. anyway, dont miss me(:

2008-04-30T23:31:00.002+08:00

hello, i'm really happy today:) the fruitseller outside my house is really really funny and entertaining, with all his talk about the mango man, who specialises in cutting mangoes etc. hahahah, and he gave me a packet of free mangoes to eat:) hahhah
and so it went something along the lines of:

fruitseller: (sees me walking past and waves)
me: (sees him waving and smiles)
fruitseller: ni yao qu na li? (so busybody right?but nevermind)
me: hui jia
fruitseller: xian zai cai hui jia ah? (beckons me over to the fridge)
me:????
fruitseller: (taking out a packet of mangoes) qing ni chi!
me:???(smiles stupidly) xie xie.

oh man, i should stop now, cos im taking ages to figure out all the hanyupinyin and stuff like that.
but thats the gist of it, but much weirder in reality. this is retarded. anyway, it could be that hes trying to bribe me into buying more fruits from him, after he found out that i stay nearby.booo.

so please! visit the fruit stall near the katong laksa stalls:) so heres some free advertising.hahah

2008-04-09T12:09:00.003+08:00

know which word best describes how im feeling now? SHIT.

after being put on hold for twenty minutes by the dumb ICA, i gave up and decided that going down personally would be more fruitful. subsequently, everything just sort of got worse. what the hell, and the whole plan's going haywire.SUCKS LIKE MAD!! GRRRRR!

i wish i could say the right words,
i wish i could do the do the appropriate things,
i wish i could have more guts,
i wish i could be less afraid.
yet, all these wishes would get me nowhere.

2008-04-07T00:06:00.007+08:00

i caught WE WILL ROCK YOU today with the family and it was FREAKING GOOD! seriously, it was electrifying:) so because of that, we missed church, since it was the matinée show.

anyway, pictures from settlers on tuesday.APRIL FOOLS, gansi and i got fooled by fz. hehh my favourite was the EGG game:)anyway, we kept asking for brainless games with simple easy to follow instructions, yet we were still given braingames. oh well. and its pointless to play those kind of the-one-who-shouts-the-loudest-wins games, cos duh, fz would just be winning every round. and we would all be stuck being best friends with hearing aids.

check out the stalkerish photos, i know fz has a secret crush on limxiao and i:)

oh my goodness, look how happy i am with my EGGS! :D fz's squeezing her eggs like dont know what. hahahaha. too much of my gums are showing, i look like im wearing dentures. why does limxiao only look mildly excited.hahahah, oh shit, i cant even stand looking at my gleeful look.

you must be an idiot! stupid game, but we really discovered who was the trueblue idiot: limsu. really retarded.

2008-04-02T12:14:00.002+08:00

i have no idea whether im making the right choice, but then again, there wasn't much of a choice to begin with. if i were able to relive my whole two years in tpjc, i'm absolutely positive that things would turn out exactly the same way. it's not about how many chances i could have, but the circumstances that matter the most. oh yes, not forgetting the issue of pride, and the restrictions of the weaker sex. because, as much as equality of sexes is proclaimed, the stereotypic mindset has already been etched so deeply. so, bound by the constraints of my gender, i just have to bury this deep underground. as if it was something, so shameless and crude.

i wish this would go away, but eventually, i'd just go on looking for substitutes.
random people, who look like you.

2008-03-30T21:34:00.002+08:00

i should just sign up with the ministry of manpower to be a roadsweeper. considering the fact that my career options are so limited. i failed my btt etrial test today, so i cant even drive the garbage truck.boooo.

you won't know how it feels, when despite your heart and mind telling you to move, your body remains frozen. i'm not even expecting myself to be spontaneous or even enthusiastic, but i want to at least give adequate responses so that i can relieve others of the suspicion that i'm afterall, only a block of wood. no pun intended. so my practise of self-restrainment has gone way overboard and i can't reverse it.

2008-03-28T23:39:00.002+08:00

hello:) i'd never have thought that teaching kids would be so enjoyable. it's been really amusing to listen to the funny things they say. hahhha racist jokes and whatnot. Ahh, i could do without the uphill trek though. heh. and i nearly died while running/walking uphill today, cos i thought i was late.booo. this week has been my first official week of work, i.e wed-fri. hahha.the pay's not bad too, would probably be sticking to this for awhile.

i can't wait to go visit kusumi in the states:D i want to go to disneyland please:)

oh, and i haven't seen han's man in AGES!:(

2008-03-16T21:39:00.002+08:00

after reading kusumi's and steffi's blogs and their sentimental entries involving tkgs and sentosa, im feeling rather sore and indignant about growing up and officially ending my years of formal education. of course i'd miss tpjc too, but that's a whole different feeling altogether.

and my laziness has gotten the better of me,so fearing that i might leave out certain details, ive decided to just copy and paste their entries wholesale:) on a side note, of course the mep gang is still remembered:D

kusumi's post: THE LONG LIST OF THANKYOU'S

siminn..mi fren, mi mentor, mi buddy, d shoulder that i can lean on..always.. u've realli inspired mi in many many ways.. thank you for everything.. its all those small sweet simple acts that realli matters a lot to me.. thank you for always being there for me..be it mentally,psychologically,spiritually.. love you always. n dont forget im here for you too..

steffi.. (tis girl has been MIA lately.lol. *apology accpted.hehee).. i cant exactly know what you've been through the past few months.. do cheer up allrite? these things do happen in life.. be strong..n i hope that watever happens, you'll remember to smile..like how you never fail to bring those smiles n laughters everyday in our lives =) we love you for who you are, steffi...
never stop being the sunshine in everybody's lives allrite? i miss you..badly. n i mean it

eviee.. it started with mrs block of wood.. and then we got to know each other better after some time.. mi partner in crime..mi partner in bitching jus about everything and anything under the sun. thanx for companying mi through those bad times i went through.. thanx for being able to share mi joy with you.. i miss youuuu!!!

giraffeeeee!!! you've been so busy working..i havent gotten the chance to talk to you yet. and when u n evie could go online, i was sleeping like a dead log. i'll be waitinggg to catch up with u n evie real soon..i miss d sentosa trip.. the crazy gossips at nite.. laughingg nonstop n not being able to sleep until late cuz of our giggly-laughters. giraffeee!!! lets go sentosa again!!!

arviee..i still remember you and your pile of books.. below that table, are those story books you're hiding from mr.ang lol. you'd be reading and reading non stop.. wherever you go, there'll always be John Grisham books in your hands..n Nora Roberts!! lol. i sat through sec 3 with you and diyanah..and it was realli fun to be at the back..even though mr ang said i was vertically challenged. lol. i finally got to meet and talk to you after such a long time.. and im looking forward to meeting you guys again real soon ..

i realli wan to go back to those good old days..
where simin sat right at the back..yelling at us to get our books from the cupboard...
those times when steffi would tell us all those korean dramas, those jokes..that made us laugh our heads off. whenever we got together, there's neverending laughter..neverending happiness..neverending foolishness that made us happie..
eviee would be lying dead on her desk..looking tired(?!!!?)..listening to the gossips steffi has..and us teasing her with block of wood..teasing simin with mr alex. lol. i didnt forget simin =).. and giraffe would be laughingg and adding on to the gossips with mi..

im glad that i have these beautiful memories of us being happie together back in secondary school.. and i hope that this frenship will never end. forever would be impossible, but i promise to be there for you guys until the day i disappear from this beautiful world...thank you for being a part of my memory..im sure there'll be many many more to come =)

steffi's post: in tkgs when the world was just about us having funmugginglaughing our ass off gigglingthe world then was seriously just about us and frankly speaking those days people may see it as silly people may see it as a waste but i tell you its the best days i ever had:) i really miss those days so much i miss my green uniform i miss pulling my socks down i miss pulling my belt down i miss making fun of ms lui being the hippo

HAHAHAH! my sentiments exactly. anyway, its so MUSHY! actually, although nothing much came out of chem tuition, at least my money was well spent:) so , who cares that i dropped chem in the end. hahhha, if not, i'd never have known them better. and i remember steffi and i waiting outside for y'all to finish, just so that she could catch a glimpse of the much-talked-about BLOCKOFWOOD! HAAH! and and, i havent forgotten about lhy, yihui and qq too!:) i cant seem to find my tkgs-days photos, i think they're in my sissy's comp.shall transfer them some other time:)ms lui is HOI HOI!

but nevermind, teacup's been really nice lately, not like she isn't normally, but ahh, you get it.

2008-03-13T23:34:00.003+08:00

i love HANS MAN!!! i think i could just sit there and stare all day:D i feel so loser-ish cos my whole life revolves entirely around cheap thrills. HAHAHAHA. send me to the nunnery quick!

i think i look like shit in this photo, but then again it's the best of the lot. anyway, limxiao's look is just retarded. so this was the cause of the zara-saga. wow, it rhymes.

2008-03-05T00:06:00.002+08:00

PFFT! FRIDAYYY!!!

Get this widget

Track details

eSnips Social DNA

2008-02-27T14:16:00.002+08:00

HUNGRY! i want to eat fishballs now:( oh, and fuzhou, limxiao and i quit our job after two hours of work ytd. hahha so, goodbye, clarke quay.

2008-02-25T00:16:00.001+08:00

Daddy, please buy this for me:)

2008-02-22T13:59:00.002+08:00

The plumber was digging around in the pipes & he saw something shine in the muck & it turned out to be the soul of the last tenant. He gave it to me & I said, I wonder how we can return it. He shrugged & said he found stuff like that all the time. You'd be amazed what people lose, he said.
-the storypeople

2008-02-20T13:46:00.000+08:00

Nothing is stranger, more delicate, than the relationship between people who know each other only by sight – who encounter and observe each other daily, even hourly, and yet are compelled by the constraint of convention or by their own temperament to keep up the pretence of being indifferent strangers , neither greeting nor speaking to each other. Between them is an uneasy and overstimulated curiosity, the nervous excitement of an unsatisfied, unnaturally suppressed need to know and to communicate; and above all, too, a kind of strained respect. For man loves and respects his fellow man for as long as he is not in a position to evaluate him, and desire is born of defective knowledge.

- Death in Venice, Thomas Mann

2008-02-17T23:14:00.002+08:00

i hope you know why i cannot stay.

and today, was the day, on which i embarked on my saddest car-ride ever.

2008-02-07T23:00:00.000+08:00

there's this thing about festivities that i dislike. not so much of the small talk that everyone's trying to engage in, but more of the strain that these festivities place on people. and so i try to see where you're coming from, but it's hard to, when we all don't really understand or say how we truly feel.

i recognise that as a couple, it's virtually impossible to be together without any conflicts and all the melodrama, but why can't these be kept at a minimum especially during festive occasions. it has always been this way since cheryl and i were wee kids. all the shouts, screams and tears, have to us, become part and parcel of special occasions, be it christmas or chinese newyear. when your mood becomes more unpredictable than the weather, that's when all my practicing of detaching myself from reality is put to use. but it's just such a pity that reunion dinners are never enjoyable, with silence all round the table. that is assuming everyone is even seated around the table.

and while everyone's anticipating the joys of celebrating with friends and family, i'd just grit my teeth and act like i'm having fun.

2008-02-05T23:51:00.001+08:00

why is everyone getting/or has already gotten a tattoo. isnt it painful:( goodness, i even cry having my eyebrows plucked, so i can just forget about even getting a tattoo whatsoever.hehh, not that i even want one in the first place. sucks, i hope the nerves around my eyebrow area die soon, so that i no longer get laughed at by the people at the place:(
booo, crybaby. the poor people there even have to help me to wipe away my tears. grrrr. its embarrassing alright, they even remember me:( this is not good. need higher pain tolerance. how now?

new and improved version of 7-11. hahhaha

2008-02-04T21:23:00.000+08:00

been working for the past week and im soo sick of post offices and such. really really hope dennis pays well.booo. jobless again. shall job hunt after the newyear:)

anyway, the robinsonsroad post office should seriously consider upgrading their telephone. ive never used such a gigantic and ancient phone before. seriously. its antenna was even extended out to the maximum length. the length of the phone itself, excluding the antenna, is approximately the length of my arm to wrist. somewhat like the phone below, but tons more gigantic in real-life.

so im going to walk on by, cause its the only thing i know how. and its on days like this, that make all these differences seem so glaringly obvious.

without lifting a finger you're holding me back.

2008-01-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

seriously, my brain is disintegrating. couldnt spell tiger and rabbit last night. tigger and rabit. oh my god. so work supposedly starts tmr. lets hope it actually does, for real. journeying to amk again. bah.

because i've always known that two and two makes three.

2008-01-25T10:28:00.000+08:00

GRRRRR! stupid guy, god knows what his name is, stood fuzhou and i up today. AHHH! super angry. just thinking about it makes me feel like killing him. booo. having to wake up at 7 and travel all the way to angmokio, is so not funny. after having waited for him at the mrt for half an hour, he happily called up to say that he's not free today, so we can just scoot off home, and be there at the same time tmr instead, as if we live just nextdoor from amk mrt. WTH! he jolly well knows that we live like so damn far away and he still smugly insisted that we meet at angmokio:( worst still, he refused to tell me where is geylang east ytd. idiot! i feel like quitting alrd, when the job hasn't even begun.

2008-01-24T00:13:00.000+08:00

the jobless life is really good:) unfortunately, its set to end soon. bahh, i cant believe fuzhou and i blatantly lied to the guy about knowing where the training is going to be held at. separately and unplanned. hahhah. ladies and gentlemen, i think we've got ourselves, an ego problem.

anyway, caught beauty world last week, but only took photos with the cast the day after, weird huh.

the microphones sticking out of their hair gives them a rather extra-terrestrial look.dont you think.

and heres from the embarrassing orchard photo-taking adventure.hehh.

boy oh boy, look how you've grown.

2008-01-19T19:06:00.000+08:00

Piece by piece, and bit by bit
I’ll break this down for you, real slow
But I can't whisper all of this
And I can't seem to let this go

So I’ll watch the matches, turn to ashes
I’ll watch the matches, turn to ashes

I can tell its your turn,
I smell the sulfur so clear
And fire's a beautiful sound
And the wings that you burn
turn to ashes my dear
And ashes just fall to the ground
Yeah we're only ashes

Part by part and inch by inch
You'll have your mile when its through
Incinerate what’s left of this
And torch the part of me that's you

So I’ll watch the matches, turn to ashes

I can tell it's your turn,
I smell the sulfur so clear
And fire's a beautiful sound
And the wings that you burn
turn to ashes my dear
And ashes just fall to the ground
Yeah we're only ashes

I can tell it's your turn,
I smell the sulfur so clear
And fire's a beautiful sound
And the wings that you burn
turn to ashes my dear
And ashes just fall to the ground
Yeah we're only ashes

2008-01-13T21:09:00.000+08:00

i like to laugh to myself.its great fun. try it:)

i look like a man, think like a man and act like a man. sucks. might as well just go be a man and join the army, to defend the country and protect its sovereignty. too much testosterone i think): please god, dont let me fully morph into a man, i cant defend the country.

2008-01-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

im so pathetically jobless:(i think my hamster's the only one who's actually happy to see me rotting at home, cos i feed her when ive got nothing better to do

anyway, im just soooo amazed by the discoveries ive been making these few days! HAHAHAH! cant wait for dinner on friday to share with the rest! HEEEEHH:D must go out more, to see more exciting things!this is so darn incoherent, but i dont care cos im confused, happy, sad and shocked simultaneously.

2008-01-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

coin operated boy
sitting on the shelf he is just a toy
but i turn him on and he comes to life
automatic joy
that is why i want a
coin operated boy

made of plastic and elastic
he is rugged and long-lasting
who could ever ever ask for more
love without complications galore
many shapes and weights to choose from
i will never leave my bedroom
i will never cry at night again
wrap my arms around him and pretend

2008-01-07T20:24:00.001+08:00

so i keep a box of tissues in the toilet, just for convenience sake. i just wish i could soundproof it too.

2008-01-06T22:06:00.000+08:00

If I don’t listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself
I’ll get over you I know I will
I’ll pretend my ships not sinking
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you
Because I’m the king of wishful thinking
I am the king of wishful thinking
I’ll get over you I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
But I won’t shed a tear for you
I’ll be the king of wishful thinking
(I’ll be the king of wishful)

I’ll get over you I know I will
I’ll pretend my hearts still beating
Cause I’ve got no more tears for you
I am the king of wishful thinking
(king of wishful thinking) no

2008-01-05T13:13:00.000+08:00

sometimes, we put up walls, not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to knock them down.

2008-01-04T13:29:00.000+08:00

when i went back to tkgs ytd, mostly everything looked the same. damn, it even felt the same. the slight nervousness when mdmkhoo approaches. hahha. i pinned my VISITORS badge proudly on my shirt(:

and so we were contemplating on wearing our old uniforms to pretend to be sec ones having orientation. hahh, who could we kid though. i want to try that in tp. might fare better there.heh.
angweejin said that he remembers me as the girl slumped on the table sleeping:( this is not good. at least i reckon i didn't sleep in class all that often in tp.

i might be suffering from chronic fatigue, cos it doesn't matter how much i have on my mind, the sandman still steals me away.

funny how a fence could make a world of difference.
so lets play pretend.

2008-01-03T10:14:00.000+08:00

in many ways, school disguises the differences we all have. perhaps it's the attire that causes this, but somehow, this superficial oneness is also paired with the false perceptions of our fellow schoolmates' characters. impressions of how they really are, fuelled by one's own wishful thinking and expectations, are derived simply from observations of their behavior.

maybe its been too much to expect, so after finally realising that i've been living a daydream, it's time to start the newyear with a clean slate.

the above refers to the one mentioned in my december fourth post, in case you were wondering.

and just because of my intense dislike for party boys and such.

2007-12-17T00:47:00.000+08:00

2007-12-15T16:46:00.001+08:00

2007-12-14T13:00:00.000+08:00

joy to the world,
to all the boys and girls,
joy to the fishes,
in the deep blue sea,
joy to YOU AND ME!

:D

2007-12-12T13:03:00.000+08:00

i dont know what matters to you anymore.

18. MY MOTHER NEVER FELL OUT OF LOVE WITH MY FATHER

2007-12-11T23:46:00.000+08:00

She's kept her love for him as alive as the summer they first met. In order to do this, she's turned life away. Sometimes she subsists for days on water and air. Being the only complex life-form to do this, she should have a species named after her. Once Uncle Julian told me how the sculptor and painter Alberto Giacometti said that sometimes just to paint the head, you have to give up the whole figure. To paint a leaf, you have to sacrifice the whole landscape. It might seem like you're limiting yourself at first, but after awhile you realise that having a quarter-of-an-inch of something you have a better chance of holding on to a certain feeling of the universe than if you pretended to do the whole sky.
My mother did not choose a leaf or a head. She chose my father, and to hold on to a certain feeling, she sacrificed the world.

-an excerpt from THEHISTORYOFLOVE

red is so over

2007-12-10T21:15:00.000+08:00

cant say how much im craving for candyfloss. not just any candyfloss, but specifically the one at eastcoast:) weird place to get candyfloss eh, but both limxiao and i agree that its the best we've ever eaten:D

bloated all over again and i think its never ending, and so, i cant eat:( sucks like mad. the constant rain isnt doing anything to improve it.

anyway, ive sort of given up waiting for the answer either the friend has died, or he has changed his number at this horribly coincidental time, and noone knows bout it, or he has gotten lost while holidaying, maybe somewhere around the bermuda triangle. wth, im done with waiting.

im getting over you,
im getting over you most of the time,
if i say it like i mean it,
then maybe id believe it like its true.
im getting over you

2007-12-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

this shall be my second birthday post.hehh:)didnt go to church today cos it was raining, and my dad refuses to drive in the rain.anyway, i think there's something seriously wrong with my tummy nowadays cos it's always feeling bloated etc. bahh, maybe it's just cos the periods coming.

anyway, limxiao,fuzhou,limsu&gansi went all the way down to the ntuc at killiney road, where i was grocery shopping with my family (what a joyous birthday activity eh), to surprise me with an ice-cream cake:D, a sunflower and THEHISTORYOFLOVE:D HEEEHH! just when i thought they'd forgotten all bout me. twas fun chasing them round the supermarket aisles, and them trying desperately to run away from me even though i'd already seen. them.hehhh. and i really must control my laughter since they said they could hear me from the end of the supermarket even though i was at the entrance, ohwell. AHHAHAH!sorry for the panic and confusion caused cos we really didnt know where we were going so we couldnt give you a definite answer.

my sissy's been nice to me cos she bought me shirt,food and bangles:) ohh, and thanks for helping the mad people in their supermarket surprise. heeh. it means much cos you talked to mummy cos of it and it's something you reallyreally rarely do:) maybe birthday wishes do come true afterall. together with your dislike of talking over phones.

mep gang's three-birthday's-in-one plan should be put in operation soon! yayy! can't wait:)

hello, reputation oh reputation, are you really so important afterall? this sounds like an othello scene gone bad.booo.

2007-12-09T01:07:00.000+08:00

HELLOOO:D
so i've been eighteen for more than an hour now, and i dont feel much older. ahh yes, ytd would've been perfect if not for the cranky tummy. candyfloss just blows me away:),you too eh, limxiao,the teacup, hahhah. and drank sugarcane juice for the very first time hehh.i feel just a little bit deprived.
ohh, and i wish i could know the answer now. ahh, do birthday wishes ever come true? cos i'd wish as much as it takes.

i guess i was more than a little distracted.heee:)
anyway, my dumb decision on friday is yet to be exposed haahh.oh well, im such a contradiction.

2007-12-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

ahh yes, prom&post-prom pics:)havent gotten all of them yet so prolly more, later on. yes, and i'm still having withdrawal symptoms.
:Dbut im a happy&satisfied kid at the moment cos i found somethingsomething. hehh.

i really should stop laughing with my mouth wide open and shouting wayy too loudly at all the wrong times.

p.s the toes are still numb i seriously swear they're gonna drop off:(

2007-12-04T20:28:00.000+08:00

toes have been numb for more than 12hrs now. is it normal?
ohh, and since limxiao dared me to, i shall say it loud&clear, that i like wongweijun okay! ah, it's pretty safe cos he prolly doesnt even know i exist.hahahh.

2007-12-04T16:32:00.000+08:00

my toes have been numb since i removed my heels this morning. ohwell, i just hope they don't rot and drop off due to lack of blood circulation.ahh.feels weird.

prom's over and i guess i kinda expected more from it.sucks to be let down. bahh, im really really really gonna miss rff, and i've got mixed feelings about the whole thing. but since i'll probably never ever see him again, as much as i'd love to, what's the point eh. boo, how can there be an end when it never began.

But I won't run around after you
And you know what you've found
And you know I'm in love with you
Everything changes when I see your smile
So stay a little while.

I miss you even more today
knowing that you're so far away

2007-12-02T13:00:00.000+08:00

monday just scares the hell out of me:/ boooo.

2007-11-14T17:01:00.000+08:00

had cramps for five freaking hours last night and econs case study was like shit. ahh well, its just not very good eh. goodbye, happy bubble, i see you've gotten yourself burst again

2007-11-12T16:19:00.000+08:00

THREE MORE DAYS:D
WOWwheeeeee

thats when i love you

2007-11-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly

And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life

Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than you'll know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life

Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough

Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough

Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

favourite song:) ahh, i feel like a horrid kid today, and i threw away my rusty ole umbrella. its rather ironic to start blogging in the midst of the BIG A's eh.

imissrff:)

2006-12-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

my dad's on leave till the newyear, and it scares me cos im sure the parents are gonna fight nonstop.): and i cant help but remember all the accusations you threw at me.
bah, and surprisesurprise, i havent even done any holidayhw.
anyhow, im gonna make tmr good no matter what, cos im visiting my new home and theres also teejay's bandconcert:)

his dreams are like commercials
but hers are picture perfect

2006-12-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

step one you say we need to talk
he walks you say sit down it's just a talk
he smiles politely back at you
you stare blankly right on through
some sort of window to your right
as he goes left and you stay right
between the lines of fear and blame
and you begin to wonder why you came

where did i go wrong, i lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness
and i would have stayed up with you all night
had i known how to save a life

let him know that you know best
cause after all you do know best
try to slip past his defense
without granting innocence
lay down a list of what is wrong
the things you've told him all along
and pray to god he hears you
and pray to god he hears you

where did i go wrong, i lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness
and i would have stayed up with you all night
had i known how to save a life

as he begins to raise his voice
you lower yours and grant him one last choice
drive until you lose the road
or break with the ones you've followed
he will do one of two things
he will admit to everything
or he'll say he's just not the same
and you'll begin to wonder why you came

where did i go wrong, i lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness
and i would have stayed up with you all night
had i known how to save a life

2006-12-11T21:49:00.000+08:00

i'm seventeen and sick)': cant stop sneezing. i just farted and coughed at the same time, and it felt weird. hahhhahha. okay, you didnt have to know that.

2006-12-02T13:17:00.000+08:00

weather in taiwan's the best(: tons better than sg. i felt like jumping down from taipei101.
everyday is packPACK time. 'evelyn! go clear your things! why arent you packing' bahh. well, at least we're shifting to someplace nice. and i dont care, i'm gonna use my beeg bed as an excuse to chope the bigger room. hehh.
anyway, its good that we're finally shifting, since the aircons giving me shit. me and my sissy had to squeeze on her supersingle for one night. but i slept quite well though, considering that i slept at the edge. i have a phobia of rolling off beds after i rolled off a particularly high one in some hotel. thankgod for carpets(: i swear i sleep like a log, cos my sissy said she pinched and poked me cos i was about to roll over her.HAHAHA.oh my, thankyou fats for ensuring my uninterrupted sleep(:
finally the period's here, but the stupid cramps are messing up my plans. and my cash's all gone):

why won't you say anything. oh, everybody's running away from something.

2006-11-18T15:08:00.000+08:00

<3 <3 hahhaa. this is my newfound love. move over mara and potato.:) lookee, he's even using the same phone as me. yayy:) okay, i'm being dumb.

leaving for taiwan on monday. bahh, apparently its getting hotter there, around sg's temp. what's the use of having fourseasons then. i hopehopeHOPE there's gonna be nice stuff to buy.

and i cannot believe the dad just yelled at me cos my phone rang but i didnt pick up cos i couldnt hear it. ughh.and my jacket's not back yet. boooohooo.

shall go down to swim soon, the heat's killing me): whyohwhy cant it be snowing or something in taiwan.

2006-11-16T00:36:00.000+08:00

ohh yes, some stupid bitch stole my jacket)': and she's a damn rich freak la. besides, she ignores my sissy's smses to get her to return the jacket. bloody idiot. grrrr. i hate her. hmph. thank god it wasnt kermit she stole or i would have stalked(since its what i do best) her home and chopped her up with a, well, chopper.
bloody asshole, who takes photos with people she's not very close to since she has zero friends and calls them her bestfriends. one word: LOSERR.
oh my, how i hate you.):< gahhh.

OOH, ive got a new bag(:

2006-11-15T23:31:00.000+08:00

this is for the sissy, just cos she's been quite sweet lately(: she has a beegfattongue. heh.

the rainy weather makes me feel cold and i dont feel like bathing, but i dont wanna be stinky.
the comps making weird whirring noises):
ahh yes, goldenmilecomplex freaks me out. and i keep seeing dead animals these days. booo.

somehow, im wishing that my birthday never comes. i dont wanna grow old please. where oh where is peter pan. hahhhahhah. who gets it?(:im just kidding. so kusumi, giraffe, strawberryshortcake and whoever else, stop laughing at me, will you.hehh

If someone said three years from now,
You'd be long goneI'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew.

i want to eat your brains(:

2006-11-10T18:47:00.000+08:00

But I don't know enough, I get some kinda lazy day (:

hehh, the teevee's blasting tamil cartoons, cos im too lazy to roll the chair over to switch channels after power rangers on kidscentral ended. the hermit crab's eating veggies:) i would very much like cable please.

shhh, dont tell anyone, but baba and i stalked mara home today. yayy. any day with mara is always good ehh.:D we ate prawn mee. oh, lazy constipated>_< woman went home after op. bahh. well, at least i didnt stay back for nothing:)

probably meeting the MEP gang tmr. ahh, but i'd be going house-hunting with the parents first.oh man,gonna get evicted soon):

lets eat prawn mee
prompt me?
yes, prawn mee
hah? prompt you for what?
i think theres something dreadfully wrong:) hehh.

I NEED NEW SPECS:D (this is the longest post in ages, which is a good thing, no?)